When my father was married to my now ex-stepmother her oldest son(let’s call him mark) would constant rape and molest me and force me to do things to and with his other brothers , to this day my father only knows of me being molested and not about me being raped . And when I was 10 my sisters bestfriend sexually assaulted me at a park . I am now 13 years old and every night I have dreams and flashbacks of what my step brothers and my sisters best friend did to me and now I am suicidal I don’t who to vent to and who I can trust to tell this too, I’m scared to tell my dad cause I’m scared he might now believe me , can someone tell me what I should do??

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023