When I was around 4 years old my older cousins SA me. It happened on multiple occasions and one of them would always tell me it was a game and if I didn’t want to play that he would tell all my cousins to pick on me and tell my aunt I was doing bad things. Then, another one of my cousins SA me and she would always try and sleep over, and sleep in the same bed as me to do things to me at night. There was this time where I was taking a bath and she came in having me go on the floor to do things to me and told me if I were to ever say anything, I’d be in big trouble because it would all turn out to be my fault. I’m older now but I realized I have some anxiety and a bit ptsd from it and not sure how to handle it because I feel like I can’t talk to anyone. What do I do?