When I was around 4-11 I used to go live on different apps and older men always asked me for noods and stuff and I did it. I really regret it now because I feel like that’s what men only want me for.

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When I was around 4-11 I used to go live on different apps and older men always asked me for noods and stuff and I did it. I really regret it now because I feel like that’s what men only want me for.

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