When I was about 10 years old me and my friends were playing games and one said “lets play a different game inside” and everyone agreed saying “that sounds fun” etc well we went upstairs and she wanted us to play “dirty” truth or dare so now I don’t play t or d and then she took us into her “game” room or something like that and she forced us to watch s3x videos and p0rn I feels unsafe around everyone now and I don’t go into anyones room anymore unless I trust them . Is this trauma idk? I need help bc I am still her “friend” not rlly but I don’t wanna be her friend anymore because of the stuff she put me through how do I tell her? Advice please .

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023