When I was about 10 my mom went to work and I was home with my siblings and stepdad my mom had 2 kids with him and he lived with us since I was 7 well one day I was in the room doing something and he hugged me I felt really uncomfortable the next day he started doing things to me it was almost every day every time my mom would leave he would try to come into my room so I would put a chair on my door so he wouldn’t get in it was scary and he always found a way to guilt trip me I didn’t know right from wrong I told him I was gonna tell my mom and he said nobody would believe and that he loved my mom 3 years later I told my mom because I didn’t start my period and she wanted to know why and then she asked if anyone did anything to me and I told her yes that it was my stepdad she cried sm she got mad at him he left for a while and he came back I stayed with my grandma for a while and moved back with her it’s the fact that my mom stayed with him knowing he SA me I was so young for that to happen to me I bring it up to her once In a while and she gets mad at me I don’t understand how somone could do this to their child but now I’m more grown and I still carry these thought with me but I’m better now and I have people who love and care for me

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023