when i was 7-10 i was molested by my cousin and so was my sister but for 4 years. then in 7th grade(js now going to 8th) my best friend for 1 1/2 molested me for 4 hours, and then my childhood bestfriend that i knew since kindergarten molested me, we dated for 3 years then we’re on and off. i didn’t pursue the case with my childhood bestfriend bc the cases always make me relapse, but nothing ever happened to him and my best friend who was dating him dropped me bc i got him in trouble.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023