When I was 15 one of my friends was extremely suicidal and told me everything, from when she was cutting herself to the ways she had planned of finally committing to k!lling herself. She told me that if i ever told anyone she would do it so i didn’t tell anyone but i never slept in fear of her dying in the night so after about 6 months i told a teacher at school and they got her professional help but she sent me death threats every night for a year because i told someone even though i thought i did the right thing. it’s been 2 years now since i started getting the threats and very occasionally i still get them and now i feel like i’ve done the wrong thing telling someone to get her help

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023