When I was 14 I moved with my mom but I regretted it later on. She lived in SC in a mobile park and one day my little sister wants to go to a friend's house and me being the oldest I take her. When we get there we meet the whole family and I think they're really nice people. We go home and then a few days later we head over there again while my sister was inside I was talking to the uncle when suddenly he just grabs me and puts his hand down my pants. My little sister comes out with her friend and they saw but the uncle plays it off like it was nothing and they saw wrong . He told me not to tell anyone and I didn't. A few days later he takes my virginity and then I find out he's been touching my little sister. I was so disgusted by myself I tried to kill myself. My mom ended up finding out and blamed me. That same year I ended up getting raped by a random dude. After that I attempted 2 more times to end my life my mom thought I tried to do it because I loved the old man but in reality I just hated myself and was disgusted by myself because I couldn't protect my sister and I feel like it's all my fault. My mother would also call the other side of my family and say I was a problem Child and a liar.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023