when I was 14 I I had a bf, the relationship started off great but as we were together longer he expected more from me, and when I didn't give him what he wanted he would threaten me or my family or friends, I was so scared of this because I went through alot of childhood abuse and arguing was the core of that and I never wanted to make my bf angry. but there was one time that I brought up breaking up with him because I couldn't handle the relationship at that point.. but he slapped me and right there in my very own bed he r@ped me. I didn't know what to do, I was to scared to even move. he left the room, leaving me in puddles or blood and sweat. after that I just kinda turned to s3× for my escape, thinking that it would make me feel less guilty for what happened. I never told anyone that..

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023