When I was 14 I had joined a gang in my area and after a while I had gotten a girlfriend and she didn't like me being in a gang so the way I had to get out was kidnap a kid and his mom, me and a few other people tied them up so they were looking at each other and we forced the kids mom's eyes open and I had to torture and brutally murder the kid while she watched

This isn’t necessarily a deep dark secret in anyway, but it’s one I have to get off my chest. I have been burdened with it for 4 years now. I’ve known my bestfriend since I was born, and we always told eachother everything. We’re still bestfriends, we just don’t talk as much as we used to. I’ve liked him for a while but I never said anything because I didn’t think things would work out, and then I’d just end up losing my bestfriend. He told me a few months ago he started seeing this girl- who is now his girlfriend. Ever since he told me, it’s like I can barely look at him. I love him so much and he doesn’t even know, it makes my heart sink. How could I love someone so much and them not even know?

• July 22, 2023