When I was 13 I had a best friend named Ariana, me and her became inseparable after getting to know each other for two weeks. She soon introduced her brother to me, Ian (boy). Ian ended up liking me, another girl liked me, they were both fighting over for me. Ariana was there to support me through it, as the fight went by my other guy friend name Bay (Boy) we meet each other when I was helping him fro his toxic ex. He said I was in a relationship with him without my confirmation. The girl and Ian got heartbroken, I never spoke to the girl in forever and Ian gotten depression recently after that. Ariana figured how uncomfortable being in a forced relationship, after four days he asked me to “be in him” I got uncomfortable which I broke up with him on the fifth day. I was the cause of Ian’s depression, It was my fault. And now I’m 15.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023