When i was 12 or 13 years old i co sleep with my mum dad and my elder brother. I always sleep beside my brother and one day midnight i was feeling uncomfortable that someone is touching me inappropriately and i wake my mom up and told her i am not feeling well so she sleep beside me. Another day same thing happened and then i find out my brother is touching me while playing or sleeping and he is just 3 years older than me. I am terrified to spoke about this with my mom or dad and now i am married but this deep secret haunts me.

i’m tired. i used to be a straight A student all through middle school. i was a good kid. never argued, had lots of friends, was likable, nice, i loved my life. i’m now a freshman in high school, so i’m not that old. i’m scared to eat, i can’t trust anyone, i’m failing 4 classes, i don’t come out of my room, just lost my best friend, my ex who i still love despises every inch of me. it’s taking a toll on my mental health and i’m just tired of being here. tired of pretending i’m happy just so other people don’t worry about me. i don’t know what to do, how to react. my anxiety is over the roof, to where i can’t even get out of bed. i got diagnosed with being bipolar, which is hard. i just don’t know what to do. i’m trying but i’m so tired. i’m running out of options.

• August 2, 2023