TW Warning: mention of $u!ç!d3 I’m 9 on the internet and I’ve been told many things that weren’t yk.. child friendly. I seemed to form a addiction on the internet and It started getting out of hand to the point where People on discord would be one of the reasons why I want to commit suicide. My parents never rlly cared for me and they abused me for so long now but I’m just too scared to reach out because I don’t know what to do. I hate myself so much but I can’t bother to do anything about It because at this point, I might die. My parents body shamed me which made me insecure and gave me trust issues. I have to act okay just to not worry ppl but It’s getting so tiring, Plus I’m a therapist to people online which is so draining. Today is my dead grandpa’s birthday, My grandma apparently has a mental problems according to my mom who has cried several times due to her statements and actions she have done in this household which means my grandma screams, Cries, And stuff like that because someone “stole her money” and blamed It on my dad. My sleep schedule is messed up, I’m getting skinny, I’m so ugly, I hate It how I’m so dumb. I could never look myself straight in the mirror and think I would be beautiful, Because that’s not true. I’m not beautiful compared to other people. I’m just too scared to speak out because I’ll only be called an attention seeker and stuff yk. I’ve cried too many times because of this. This isn’t even half of my problems. I’ll do a part 2 of current situations that are happening If this gets posted but I really need advice, Please. I hate how I have to deal with this at 9. No one cares for me and no one will ever know until the day I die I guess. It hurts watching my happiness fade away, I miss my old self. I wish I could just be hugged right this second by anybody.