This year I realised I had a crush on someone. I made the mistake of saying who it was to my best friend. My best friend then started making rumors about me with her friends and it kept on happening. Eventually the rumors got worse and all of my conversations with people in that group got leaked. I wasn't aware of the leaked convos untill someone stood up and told me. It was also then that I found about the even worse rumors. I gained access to the group chat using one of my other friends and took screenshot of everyone's conversations. I then made a new group and turned everyone against each other. Nobody in that group is friends with each other anymore I feel guilty and I never got the blame. Sometimes I sit down and just think about how I turned people against each other for my own good. My has suspicions that I have a crush on her and now the events of the group chat have also been leaked. My reputation is getting worse by the day. I don't know what to do. I hate myself for it.

I always feel like I have no friends. I have two friendsgroups but still I feel like it. I just started 8th grade last year, a new class and a new school, but still the same people. I got in class with 3 of my besties. Were were a group. But only one of them was like my real bestie. Then we met a girl from another school in our class and became friends with her too. But it was most my bestie that got friends with her, also one of the others in the group. My bestie and her started to hangout more often then I could hang out with her. Im jealous. And I know i am. Im jealous of the new girl that stealed my bestie. But she didnt steal her, my "old" bestie left me. But I still have the two other friends in the friend group. We 5 are still a group, but not so much. I also have this other friend group where one of the others from the other group is in too. We are 6 girls. Four of them was really a friend grouo, but then me and the other friend made it in the group. Or atleast I thought I did. (I walk with two of them to school) Today, both said they werent walking home, cause their going to the mall, but I didnt think they were going together. But when I found out all the 5 others in the grouo were going together, i got sad. It felt like they left me out. Im so bad at asking to join too. I feel like that would be disrespectful. I feel like everyone hates ne, and that im annoying to be around. Please help me, i litterly dont know if I can do it anymore.

• July 27, 2023