this is my without a doubt biggest regret. For context my dad was abused by his caretaker who was also his girlfriend for years, but i was too young to do or say anything about it. She overdosed him one day and he had a stroke, of course nobody could prove it was on purpose so nothing came of it. He needed a caretaker because he got paralyzed jumping into the shallow end of a pool trying to show off how cool he was to me. i was only 2 at the time. I was 14 at the time after his 2 strokes and he was practically on his death bed. he was staying with my aunt, who was a certified nurse or sum along those lines. So she was taking care of him and my mom gets a call from her basically saying “hey, adam (my dads name) is going to die any day now and aidan should she him before he passes.” So we drive the 2 hours to go see him and i really needed to say goodbye before he passed. I idolized my dad more then i shoudl have and i turned into a mini, tinier version of my dad. My mom hates him so sometimes she takes that out on me because we look so much alike. that becomes relevant at the end of this. Well i go see my dad and he’s paralyzed on his right side and can’t even form a sentence that makes sense. he would use words like “banana” or “polaroid” when he was trying to use words like “Hey” or “buddy” but i couldn’t stand seeing him like that so i broke down into tears immediately. My mom hating him as she does sees this and blames him for getting himself here. She told me we were going to get food and would be right back and i believed her. i never ended up seeing my dad alive ever again, my mom didn’t want to deal with the stress of me seeing him so didn’t take me back. he died a couple night later. The last words i ever said to him we’re “i’ll be right back dad i promise.” i never got to say goodbye to him.That is my biggest regret.