This guy started to talk to me a few months ago and he was really sweet. He is probably the best guy I have dated to this day. We went on a few dates and after 3 months out of nowhere he said he couldn’t do it anymore, and said he realized he still needed to process a breakup that happened around the same time we started talking. I gave him some space to figure it out, still convinced that he liked me, and he had also told me he had no feelings towards his ex anymore and wouldn’t go back to her. We went from talking every single day to almost nothing at all. After 3 months of flirting with me and calling me pet names and having me over at his house all the time just for him to say he couldn’t do it anymore. Not even a month after he said that, he posts a valentine’s day post dedicated to the same ex he told me he had no feelings towards anymore. He told me he only liked me as a friend. I still feel so lost. I have no idea what happened. I have no idea why he’d flirt with me for 3 months then just throw me away like trash. I hate that I miss him.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023