There’s this guy I’ve been liking ever since middle school. Mind you I’m turning senior this year and I’m still into him. I’ve never confessed to him about my feelings because not only am I a male, but I was scared. He figured it out anyways through his friends but continues to talk to me and our friendship remained the same. Now he’s dating this girl who I’m close with and I can’t help but fall in love with him again. I don’t wanna do this to my friend but I can’t help it and It’s constantly making me feel guilty. She also knew I liked him so I’m kind of bitter that she’s dating the person I liked but in the same time I can’t blame her for it because love is love. If he chooses her then that’s not my buisness. But still? What do I do? How do I get rid of my feelings for him? I’ve tried everything in my power to stop liking him. But his kindness and overall personality just makes me head over heels for him

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023