there was this girl, we were best friends since we were very little. i remember us being best friends and everyone in the school knew we were really close. but this one day in 5th grade, she asked me to be her girlfriend and told me how she liked me and stuff. i didn’t really know about lgbtq+ at the time nor did i really think about relationships. i denied her and we just continued being friends but then she asked again and i said no again. she did tell me, “when i ask you out in high school again and you deny me, i’m going to just never talk to you again and be really mad at you.” i didn’t know what to say. i did feel bad but i just didn’t want to be with her. i was only 10. how did she know she was into girls? why did she like me? why did she want to be with me? why ask me at such a young age? i didn’t want to ruin our friendship over rejection. but she didn’t leave me alone. she forced me to find out my sexuality and whatever. i was a kid. i didn’t know. i just didn’t want to be her girlfriend and what sucked about it is that she really was forcing her sexuality onto me and it really bothered me. i thought we were going to be best friends forever. i didn’t know that just by her asking me out and i rejecting her in the 5th grade would ruin our relationship. i haven’t talk to her in a two years. i unadded her bc i found her so annoying. we would never talk and our texts were really dry. was i a bad friend?

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023