the guy i liked and he liked me fell in love with my best friend. he has no bad intentions and i don’t blame him she’s just better than me in every way it just hurts to tell then yeah go be happy with each other but honestly i just want them both to be happy and she deserves him anyway and she asked me if i liked him i said i don’t know but she didn’t tell me she was talking to him i just wish i would’ve said yes yes i like him a lot and he makes me the happiest i’ve ever been in my life but it’s done now i just gotta live with it

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023