That I fell in love with this girl from summer camp when I was 14, and I never told her. We were good friends but I was too scared to admit that I was in love with her. I thought I wasn’t good enough because of how special this girl really was. I even helped her get with another guy at the camp, that’s how much of a wimp I was. On the last day of camp I thought about telling her but her parents had already picked her up. She lives on the other side of the country and we’re both too old to go back to camp, so the likely hood of me ever seeing her again is next to nothing. It’s been almost three years and I’ve never felt the way I did about her towards anyone else. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about what could’ve been, if I had just told her. Sometimes I wonder if she was my soulmate, but as Kanye would say, I guess we’ll never know.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023