some time about a month ago i was in a controlling relationship. i didn't realize it was abuse until he started forcing me to do stuff. you would probably think well why didn't u break up with him? i couldnt. and if i did, he would make everyone hate me again. i tried breaking up with him and he spread a huge lie and made everyone hate me for 3 weeks straight. those were the worst 3 weeks of my life. he asked if we could get back together so i had to say yes even though i had no feelings for him. we were together for a few more months and then he started getting really annoying. he was making me feel scared and uncomfortable all the time. he was constantly telling me to do stuff or he would tell a lie. this is when i realized i needed to tell someone about this. so i told my best friends and they said don't break up with him yet so i didnt. he was starting to be really rude and whenever i tried to break up he refused. he finally broke up with me. then a few weeks later he passed me a note asking me out. ofc, i said i'm not ready to date yet. he said " yes you are, we're dating." i refused. then i said yes even though i still had no feelings for him. i told more people and when they confronted him about it he got so mad he left. so glad to be done with him.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023