Some of my deepest secrets are that I used to cut my self without telling anyone ab it and im suicidal I stopped cutting but still have the attention to do it again and relapse again, no one knows what’s been going thru my mind or what I’ve done to myself , it’s very hard to keep up , I’m so tired of life and everything I get so annoyed easily, and my parents don’t make it worst honestly, js wanted to tell everyone that no matter what happens in life ull get thru this u matter in this world and these ppl that love u even if they don’t show it so stay here , stay till it’s ur time to go , please spread awareness of this and that mental health matters , u are important and u are loved please keep fighting ik things may get hard but u gotta keep up please these sm things u have to see and experience thru life!! Love u guys Sincerely ,M

Sooo im currently suffering from an ED (bulmina to be exact) and my friends are supportive of me but at the same time they still make jokes about it. I always hear the “why eat if youll throw it up” “oh did you throw up already” “you cant even keep it down” etc. it doesnt bother me too much because alot of times they try to keep me seated and let me stomach the food down and have always asked me how my progress is. But at the same time, my best friend isnt the biggest eater, at least not infront of me. We would plan days to go out and eat and she always eats less than i do. I get really insecure and that prompts me to get rid of the food. She oftenly comments how little she eats or how shes not hungry. If yk anything about EDs, you should know that it’s extremely competitive. So everytime i hear that or smth similar, body body freezes up and i no longer eat or keep anything down for the day. I cant bring myself too. I feel like a pig everytime i hear “im not hungry” or “oh i only ate one thing today” or anything along the lines of that. Its not her fault for saying this or my friends to joke about it, we aren’t sentimental with each other and it weirds us all out when it does happen. I know they dont mean it and want the best for me, but the comments just drive my ED further and further. I cant go to my family, they make comments on my body regardless so the only people i have are them, but at this point idk if ill be okay.

• July 31, 2023