So when i was younger my parents got divorced and i didnt know why my mom didnt want to tell me why my parents broke up becuase she didnt want me to think different of my dad but when i got older i noticed my dad was very rude to my mom about things but then a year after they broke up my dad got a girlfriend and my mom got a boyfriend and my moms now engaged and we would see my dad gf and her 2 kids all the time until covid came then we didnt see them for about a year then we saw them and it was kind of weird then like 2 months later we saw them again and seince then we have not seen them and ive seen my dad texing other women and saying i love you and i relized hes cheating on his gf and other people and its still going on and thats when i relized why my parents broke up

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023