So when I was 14 I was struggling with myself because this guy I liked played me and manipulated me into liking him for as long as I did. He used me for my looks and to make another girl jealous. I started to self harm after that and he found out. The secret I was keeping from him and myself was that he was the reason it started. That and school stress. I started on my arms but later realized it was smarted to do it on my thighs. My mom saw one of the faded scars on my arm and told me “you better not be one of those depressed kids because i’ve given you everything.” At 15 I finally understood that I needed to drop this guy so I did and I thought I had lost everything because he was my best friend. I got my first official boyfriend 5 months after that happened and he was toxic looking through absolutely everything on my phone including my messages with my dad, I have never truly been respected by a guy except my current guy best friend. This guy in one of my classes asked why I was sad and I told him i’m stressed and he told me “you don’t think everyone is stressed?? I have way much more going on then you” He talks to me all about being a abused and being like a father to his brother. I have a job and school and never get a break then I have this on top of everything and I feel so trapped and don’t know what to do because I definitely cannot afford therapy and my best friend told me I make things like my stress up for attention so what do I do?