so this is hard for me to say. but when i was 14 years old my father passed away in a traggic accident i was were really close with him since my mums always battled with a dug addiction. i’m an only child so my dad use to be my world and he would spoil me rotten. when he passed away my mum got a new boyfriend that caused her to go back on drugs. he one day came home drunk after being at the pub and told me to take my clothes whilst he was holding a kitchen knife. i said no and he threatened to stab my mum. i then undressed in front of him he took one look and me and smiled then he went to bed. i know i wasn’t rapped but it was one of the scariest moments in my life and all i want to do is tell someone about it but i’m to scared it’s not serious enough. fortunately he hasn’t done anything like it since.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023