So once my sister (18) was gay. My family is really homophobic and me (female, 15 at the time) being the only close one with my sister, was the only one she told that she was gay(besides her friends and gf at the time). Since she was 18 and in the final months of her senior year in high school, she would have to move out soon - go to college, etc. well she really didn’t want to go to college and when my parents asked why, she said that it just wasn’t something she wanted to do. Well my parents were MAD. So instead of my parents reasoning with her, they kicked her out. Well since my sister wasn’t going to live with my parents and and she was an adult, she could do whatever she wanted. So she told our parents she was gay. They were calling her really mean words that I do not want to repeat, and at one point, my father said she would be better off dead than to like females. So that’s what she did. Exactly one week later, at 12:57 in the morning she called me. I was sleeping since it was a school night. She left me a 3 minute long voicemail and I didn’t see it until the morning I woke up around 6. She had killed herself.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023