So I’ve just recently remembered something. I’m in ninth grade now, but when I was in fifth grade, I started having these visions (flashbacks?) of my older brother and I. He’d take me to his room when I was young- maybe 5-6 years old? He’s seven years older than me. When this was happening, I didn’t think much of it. A five year old isn’t really the best at thinking logically. He’d call me over, “hey, ____!” and I would come along, like any little sister would. He’d take me into his room and lock the door. He told me to take off my clothes. The first time this happened, I didn’t think much of it because I thought he was going to give me a new outfit like my grandma would. I took off my shirt and my pants, waiting for him to hand over a cute dress or something else. When he didn’t, I was confused and asked him what he wanted me to do this for. My brother helped me onto his bed since I was too short to go on by my self. He told me it was a game for only me and him. I was excited because we’d never really hung out much.. but then he started to take his clothes off. This is actually how I found out that boys and girls had different private parts. Fun. During these meetings, he’d make me touch his uh.. and he’d teach me what sex was, how to give a blowjob.. I learned everything from him. I thought it was normal and that it was still just a game. He touched me, and kissed me.. my brother told me that he loved me and that I was very special to him. I actually thought that these were dreams or something that I was remembering.. so I wouldn’t think twice about it. Then.. my sister told me.. maybe a year or two ago that he had done the same thing to her. My brother now is 21. He has a daughter. She’s almost 1 and 1/2. He was high one day when I was babysitting her.. and he took off her shirt.. mind you- it was freezing out. I told him to go away and asked why he was doing that.. my heart couldn’t stop pounding and I felt like I was going to cry. What if the same thing that happened to my sister and I happens to her too..?