So all my teenager years I had a rough time because Cova started on my birthday when I take 13 I didn't really care about but in 9th grade but I love this girl she doesn't go to school with me or anything she is my next door neighbor and we hanged out been friends but we start dating but we broke up and kept saying dating and broke up again and like I love her so much but I don't know if I should talk to her about it and like if we can stay a little bit longer together but she has anger problems and I'm scared I tell her that she will block me then I'll lose a friend and it kills me because I am so depressed right now like I don't care anymore about people's feelings like I used to and I don't know what to do

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023