one night i was hanging out with my bestfriend, her boyfriend and some of his friends. i’ve always thought one of her boyfriends friend was cute so i was flirting with him. as the night goes by they leave me and him alone in a truck so they could go get snacks, he then asked me to touch him. i say no and how i was not comfortable with that but he still began taking it out and putting it on my leg. i said i’m not going to do anything so please put it away. he finally did after 5 minutes. i don’t know what to think about this, did i get sa?

i’m tired. i used to be a straight A student all through middle school. i was a good kid. never argued, had lots of friends, was likable, nice, i loved my life. i’m now a freshman in high school, so i’m not that old. i’m scared to eat, i can’t trust anyone, i’m failing 4 classes, i don’t come out of my room, just lost my best friend, my ex who i still love despises every inch of me. it’s taking a toll on my mental health and i’m just tired of being here. tired of pretending i’m happy just so other people don’t worry about me. i don’t know what to do, how to react. my anxiety is over the roof, to where i can’t even get out of bed. i got diagnosed with being bipolar, which is hard. i just don’t know what to do. i’m trying but i’m so tired. i’m running out of options.

• August 2, 2023