One day I was trying to fix something on my boyfriend (now husband) phone. I accidentally clicked on the link button where it shows what links he has clicked on. He had clicked on a bunch of random girls profiles and their only f@ns pages. I confronted him right then and there and his response was “it wasn’t me” and “I have no idea how that got there I swear!” Obviously I didn’t believe him. And yes I’m someone who has a problem with my man watching c rn and had told him before we even started dating that if he was someone who thought that was okay in a relationship than I’m not the one to be with. He swore up and down it really wasn’t him. I stayed with him because I loved him so much and wanted to believe it’s true. I never forgot it though. Fast forward over a year we have a kid together (planned). When she was just over a month old he had a couple of drinks. And he finally confessed to that day and how it was him who clicked on those links. To this day I’ve known that but him telling me after we had a kid just absolutely boiled my blood like I cannot ever put into words. To this day it still absolutely destroys me just as bad as when I first found it. I resent him SO much and he knows it but asks me why I cannot let it go. I’m only with him because if I didn’t see my daughter every single day that would be even worse. She’s the reason I’m with him. She’s the only reason I even want to be alive. I feel so broken and depressed and anxious. Not just because of my husband. I’ve been severely depressed since high school. But all of this is just something I have to live with. Him lying to my face for over a year. And I’m stuck.