Once when I was on a cruise with my grandparents and we all shared a room. They went out to one of the bars and after they came back I said good night and they must have thought I fell asleep. I started hearing these noises and I realized that they must have been doing things. I tried to block it out but I could not. I never said anything to anyone but I still remember the night even though it was two years ago. This is exactly a deep secret but I just wanted to actually write about this

Alr so.. when I was younger I would get physically abused everyday till until about the age of 12 when I was saved from that home. (I’m 17 this year …) I always thought it was normal to grow up that way.. idk why I thought parents did that. I’m working through therapy but even they don’t know the darkest part about it . Anyway.. I still love them with everything In me.. that’s the problem tho.. im afraid to let go of the people I love the most . What do I do bcs I keep self harming and idk what to do anymore people keep leaving and hurting me so.. it’s like what do I even do yk. It’s too painful to even bring up verbally .. so yeah thanks for listening

• July 28, 2023