Ok so this happened in like November, but I went to school and whatever but like my dad texted me this in the middle of the day, "I love y'all with all my heart". And I was like ok bro some things off and I went to my sister about it cause like duh, shes my sister, but it was the last period of the day, and we had like 15-20 minutes left, and my mom called me of of school, and I looked at her and I said, " some things wrong with dad isn't there", and she said, "yea, but let me tell you in the car". There were people where we were standing and then we got my sister and went to the car, I was already crying at this point, so then she proceeded to tell me that my dad had got arrested and I started crying even more, but then a night later, he had got out before a few days and then it would have been his hearing, but he asked my mom if he could call us and she said ofc there your kids the only reason I would say no is because they wouldn't want to. Take note me and my sister were mad at him, and everything. The phone call went on for about idk 4-5 minutes and then we said love you and everything. The next day me and my sister were going on a trip to see a show, our dad did text us during on our way there, and the first message we read and responded, then he texted again and then only my sister responded, then he asked how it was going for both of us, and neither of us responded, he texted us that he loved is, we didn't respond. We got back home at like 2 in the morning, and j went to sleep with my notifications off, and now I regret it cause my dad had texted me and my sister, " Please remember me in good terms, love y'all" with some images of all of us together, and my mom came in the room and said did you see the text, and j looked at it, and I thought for a second and it hit me. I started crying, and he had texted my mom saying where he was going to be and everything few minutes passed we heard from my cousin that they had found him, that he had a pulse and they were going to airlift him to a hospital, few moments passed.....he never had a pulse.....he killed himself.....and I never got to say I loved him one last time, and now I deal with that at all times, and it hurts so bad, I was screaming and crying saying, "Why?!, Why?! " and I sat there screaming into the floor and banging my hand on the ground, and to be honest I've thought about it to.....but yes that's my story that I've shared with you....im gonna go cry now.