Ok so only a little while ago my bf was SA'd at a party the same night I was at one and I lied and said I was too so he would maybe feel a little better and also maybe use it so he would tell his parents he was SA'd if I did so I said I was and it worked the way I wanted it to, it was motivation for him to tell his parents if I told mine and I lied and said I told them so he would too I know I'm a shit person for lying about it but I was doing it to help him and I don't know weather or not I'm still terrible for it

Alr so.. when I was younger I would get physically abused everyday till until about the age of 12 when I was saved from that home. (I’m 17 this year …) I always thought it was normal to grow up that way.. idk why I thought parents did that. I’m working through therapy but even they don’t know the darkest part about it . Anyway.. I still love them with everything In me.. that’s the problem tho.. im afraid to let go of the people I love the most . What do I do bcs I keep self harming and idk what to do anymore people keep leaving and hurting me so.. it’s like what do I even do yk. It’s too painful to even bring up verbally .. so yeah thanks for listening

• July 28, 2023