Ok I still cry often about this! My parents divorced when I was 7. All I wanted was to be like my dad! My mom remarried about 2 years later. He had hard ass life but ended up making something of himself!! He never once stopped riding my ass, I was never good enough, I just thought I never measured up. I still only wanted my dad. SAD PART INCOMING!! My teacher had a day where parents could come in and eat lunch with there kids. My dad said he would try which ment no. My stepdad said he would be there! I being a complete dick head said no. Then my stepdad says how about I show up and if your dad comes I’ll leave. I gave some asshole answer I am sure. Well day came around my stepdad was right there!!! My dad 20 min late, my stepdad left and let me be with my dad. I know horrid right well it gets worse!! Fast forward 20 years my stepdad still riding my ass!! However we had great relationship by this time, I grew up and realized my dad was shit and My stepdad loved me and turned me into a man! I come home early from my job and no one was home but my body said something was wrong! Everyone has felt it. Well family friend called and get to hospital now! I arrive my mom said he’s gone! I just kinda sank and my friends all had my back! It went smooth as it could go. But my mom told me this!!! A few days after we buried him. She told me my dad the man that’s supposed to protect me!! Left my mom 20,000 in debit, never wanted us on his EVERYOTHER WEEKEND, wouldn’t help at all!! My Stepdad loved us so much he gave my mom 20,000 so we didn’t have to move!! Or leave school, or anything. I never knew that! I look back at the man I am today it was 100% all him. I never got to thank him or say goodbye! I cry all the time because I didn’t deserve his love and he doesn’t get to see how much of a success I am. I am a decorated police officer, married to a beautiful women! Abs own my own home without taking money from anyone! I just want to make him proud.