None of my family know i was sent to hospital for trying to commit last month. I got diagnosed with bipolar disorder and I now take antipsychotics everyday. They don't know that i have really bad paranoia and that the walls talk to me. I even go to therapy without them knowing. I know they would support me I just don't know how to tell them because it's been so long now.

Alr so.. when I was younger I would get physically abused everyday till until about the age of 12 when I was saved from that home. (I’m 17 this year …) I always thought it was normal to grow up that way.. idk why I thought parents did that. I’m working through therapy but even they don’t know the darkest part about it . Anyway.. I still love them with everything In me.. that’s the problem tho.. im afraid to let go of the people I love the most . What do I do bcs I keep self harming and idk what to do anymore people keep leaving and hurting me so.. it’s like what do I even do yk. It’s too painful to even bring up verbally .. so yeah thanks for listening

• July 28, 2023