My supposed best friends then, emotionally unstable, angry/violent 7yr old pushed my 3 week old son off the top bunk of his bed on to a thinly carpeted cement floor, almost killing my son, he survived. But was left with C.P. I lost custody of him and his 2 older brothers not being able to provide police or s.s. With who harmed my son or admitting to something I didn’t do, it’s been 11yrs and looking back the only logical thing that makes sense is just that, And she knows I know too. Not that it would change anything now or her even confessing would change the fact of how angry it makes me as to how any human being WOULDN’T say something, because of the potential consequences, to watch me and my families life’s just fall apart, my son almost die. All because she was to afraid to say something or call 911 when it happened. I just want to hear her say it. What she doesn’t know though is, wether she does or doesn’t, she’s not safe either way..

I always feel like I have no friends. I have two friendsgroups but still I feel like it. I just started 8th grade last year, a new class and a new school, but still the same people. I got in class with 3 of my besties. Were were a group. But only one of them was like my real bestie. Then we met a girl from another school in our class and became friends with her too. But it was most my bestie that got friends with her, also one of the others in the group. My bestie and her started to hangout more often then I could hang out with her. Im jealous. And I know i am. Im jealous of the new girl that stealed my bestie. But she didnt steal her, my "old" bestie left me. But I still have the two other friends in the friend group. We 5 are still a group, but not so much. I also have this other friend group where one of the others from the other group is in too. We are 6 girls. Four of them was really a friend grouo, but then me and the other friend made it in the group. Or atleast I thought I did. (I walk with two of them to school) Today, both said they werent walking home, cause their going to the mall, but I didnt think they were going together. But when I found out all the 5 others in the grouo were going together, i got sad. It felt like they left me out. Im so bad at asking to join too. I feel like that would be disrespectful. I feel like everyone hates ne, and that im annoying to be around. Please help me, i litterly dont know if I can do it anymore.

• July 27, 2023