My one hope for life was for a girl to give me a chance. This was in 6th grade but I have a girl I really liked. It took me about 4 months to confess to her. When I did confess she accepted my feelings and I could barely contain my happiness. She did ask that we kept it a secret so her friends wouldn't find out. Which was fine with me considering I didn't like her friends but I wanted her to keep her friend group. We went strong for a year, until one day I went to her parents weren't home. As I walked in I saw her making out on the couch with my best friend. She instantly broke up with me and I left the house breaking down into tears. I changed schools soon after in hopes of never seeing her again. Then I had seen her 2 years ago and I thought she had a change of heart. So I hung out with her just to get reminded on why I left in the first place. She bullied and degraded me. To this day I wish I could get back I'm tike and trust that I wasted on her.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023