my mom passed and my dads gone and i’m here with my sis i wanna die and i can’t do it bc i’d feel bad if i left her with no one but i’m not doing much good being here so i’m stuck mad at everyone and everything wanting to make things better so i can take care of her wishing my mom was here so she could fix everything so i don’t have to be here so i don’t have to stay i feel selfish if i leave her idk what to do

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my mom passed and my dads gone and i’m here with my sis i wanna die and i can’t do it bc i’d feel bad if i left her with no one but i’m not doing much good being here so i’m stuck mad at everyone and everything wanting to make things better so i can take care of her wishing my mom was here so she could fix everything so i don’t have to be here so i don’t have to stay i feel selfish if i leave her idk what to do

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