My mom brought be bf to live with us and hour after my dad moved out, I was 11 at the time. When I slept he would come into my room…. My mom never believed me so I ran away at 14, she let It go on for 3 years because he gave her heroin as compensation. I was with a foster family till they could find my dad, it was only a few months, he was verbally abusive and call me weak for being suicidal and told me I deserves to be raped after I was at school. At 16 I moved out of there the same night he said that. I’m 18 with my first apartment after living with friends and being in a shelter. I know I did everything right to take care of myself, but sometimes I see them in public and they have no clue who I am. They never cared to even keep tabs on me or check social media for me. I never understood how my parents could never care. They’re the people that was supposed to love me but let it happen. It hurts knowing that they couldn’t even love me.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023