my grandfather was in a bad state of mind and health. I was never really close to him so I didn't really care how he was. he had been put in a nursing home and we were told that he would have another couple years on him. one day me and my family went to go visit and my mother asked me to go inside and visit him. I was being a snobby breat and said no ill see him some other time. well we left and 20 minutes later, we got the call. my grandfather had passed away and I've never felt more guilty. I blame myself everyday for his death. anyone reading this. please don't push your grandparents to the side. enjoy your time with then while you can. its worth it. dont make my mistake<3

when i was younger (like 7-12) my dad used to hit my sisters and my mom divorced him. he rarely did it to me but he would emotionally abuse me a lot. like being manipulative and narcissistic. i’ve been to a therapist ordered by the court about it but no one ever takes me seriously because “he never really hit me” it still impacts me a lot and i try not to think about it but when i do it really messes me up. recently my moms boyfriend had asked us to move in with him and my mom said yes. my dad used to move around a lot and so the town that we’re moving to he has lived in. it’s giving me severe ptsd and anxiety and i can’t control it but my mom is telling me to get over it because hes different. well she’s had boyfriends before and they weren’t different. i can’t help feeling guilty like i’m stopping them from being happy but i’m very unsure about it. her boyfriend hasn’t given me a reason to doubt him and he’s really good to me and my younger siblings but i still worth it won’t work out.

• August 4, 2023