My friends and boyfriend only care when they need me. I’m what you’d call a therapist friend of the group, no one asked how I’m doing or if I’m okay, only talk to me when they need advice or to vent. They’ll try to let me vent but then they’ll switch it back to them and I’ll be sitting there thinking “…oh okay..” my boyfriend did this today again. I’m planning on offing myself soon, because reaching out doesn’t help, and I’ve tried all my options, meds,therapy, talking to family or friends etc. so what I’m going to do is my very last option…but what would I write to my bf or friends or family..I’m talking about this because we all have that therapist friend, maybe you are that friend, but PLEASE check up on them every now and again and let them talk about how they’re feeling cause chances are, they never get to talk about how they feel, they only listen..

when i was younger (like 7-12) my dad used to hit my sisters and my mom divorced him. he rarely did it to me but he would emotionally abuse me a lot. like being manipulative and narcissistic. i’ve been to a therapist ordered by the court about it but no one ever takes me seriously because “he never really hit me” it still impacts me a lot and i try not to think about it but when i do it really messes me up. recently my moms boyfriend had asked us to move in with him and my mom said yes. my dad used to move around a lot and so the town that we’re moving to he has lived in. it’s giving me severe ptsd and anxiety and i can’t control it but my mom is telling me to get over it because hes different. well she’s had boyfriends before and they weren’t different. i can’t help feeling guilty like i’m stopping them from being happy but i’m very unsure about it. her boyfriend hasn’t given me a reason to doubt him and he’s really good to me and my younger siblings but i still worth it won’t work out.

• August 4, 2023