My fiancé used to be really abusive. Yes I am still with him. He used to hit and choke me even when I was pregnant both times. He went to jail one day for it but I had my dad bail him out because I thought I couldn’t live without him. His best friend was on the phone with me helping me cope for 4 days non stop. Just when I thought I could live without him, I get a call saying my dad had to pick him up…at 10pm at night. My fiancé used to watch hentai porn ALOT and when I first met him I told him I wasn’t okay with porn at all. I was a happy innocent Christian girl who didn’t even know that my belly ring was a weed leaf until he explained it. I’m not Christian anymore but I still don’t believe in porn in the relationship. He used to be caught and still low and gaslight me about it for ever. Even at 34 weeks pregnant he had sex with me then jerked off in the other room to some alien porn comic while I was speaking to my mom on the phone. I cried everyday because I never felt beautiful anymore and I felt like I had to make myself look better for him even if it meant surgery. I’m not surprised he lied and gaslight me about it because when I first met him he lied about his entire personality and I didn’t know until the first few weeks I flew from NY to AL for stay with him and his narcissistic family. Ps his family sends me death threats. I’d laugh if they saw this especially because his mom said she raised him to be an abuser. Anyways, he said he watches that porn because their boobs more around a lot and my boobs are a size B but could probably fit in an A cup…so now I focus on looking gorgeous because if k don’t spend money to get my nails and hair done I won’t feel pretty at all because my body isn’t his type. I don’t look like his anime porn.