My dad isn't the best dad, he has hurt me a lot (mentally or physically I'll never say) but because of him I now have crippling fear of being on unstable things (like a bike or ladder) and I struggle to show any negative emotions (like anger or sadness) because it ends badly when I try to. He has made fun of me for having mental problems and refuses to take me to a doctor saying "I'm a hyprocondriac" I didn't get an eye appointment for 5 years because of it. Part of me wants to tell someone but another part of me doesn't because I don't want to get taken away, it's what I'm used to and I don't handle change easily.