My dad is horrible. Idk what to do. He made me live my life a lie basically till like a year ago, made me hate my mom for 7 years to make himself look like the good guy. He is emotionally and mentally abusing. He is ignorant and doesn't understand this generation. I feel like I'm jus his punching bag. He makes me feel like the house isn't my home, and I don't belong. This morning at 4 am j was awake texting my friends because I am depressed and don't sleep and he called me a ungrateful dissapointment to my family. He makes me feel unsafe jn my own house, and whem he caused me to have a mental breakdown j lost jt. He makes me feel ashamed of myself and l Blames everything on electronics. It's never about my emotional or mental health, he always blames electronics. He threats to put me in psychological therapy or in the hospital to get me off electronics. Idk what to do anymore, I'm on the verge of losing it and idk what to do. He abused my older brother when we were little, and claims to not remember. Pls help, idk what to do, it's not safe for me ajd my brother. He acts like everything is fine when jts not. Im at a loss.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023