Letting my social anxiety, and shame get in the way of doing the things I want to do, simple things such as going out with my friends. I Regret my mind think that people are saying this and that stuff about me which purely isn’t true, I’m just insecure due to trauma that I have been through, Which has lead me to this condition and yes Ik… Therapy.

I regret having a friends with benefits with a guy I loved since middle school. We lost touch during high school but befriended each other a year after graduation. I had a crush on him for years and was finally able to tell him. I’m an extremely shy person and put up walls to keep people out. But I didn’t want to do that with him, I wanted to confess how I felt. We texted for days then he asked if I wanted to be friends with benefits with him. I told him I wanted to be in a relationship. He said he wasn’t ready for that. I didn’t want to push him into one if he wasn’t ready. So I agreed to be fuck buddies as he put it. Big mistake, I started falling hard for him. He didn’t feel the same way. The sex was great but he wouldn’t text me back for Moo these on end. When he did it was only to get laid. But some other times he would treat me like a girlfriend. Get showered with gifts, go out to eat, cuddle… Slowly I was breaking because he told me over and over that he didn’t want a relationship with me. I regret wasting my time with him. But then I meet a new guy and dropped my friends with benefits. The new guy became my boyfriend and we have been dating for over six months now. I have never been happier with my boyfriend.

• May 5, 2023