lately I’ve beeb thinking abt the way my parents act. I feel really guilty saying this bc they have done a lot to provide for me and always try to look out for me. I get that. But it seems like some days they’re not nice and happy they’re really mean. I don’t rlly know. My mom is really nice and I feel guilty bc she always buys things for me and tells me how much she loves me but when she’s mad she gets really mean and even told me once that if I wasn’t her daughter she probably wouldn’t want to live in the same house. idk I guess that day she could have been stressed.My dad is great and funny and I love him but occasionally he complains about how he never gets time where we don’t nag him, how I should be grateful that he hangs out with me and my sibling, and he just gets rlly aggressive. He also just acts like everything is super deep and turns things on me when he knows hes wrong. don’t take this the wrong way, I’m not being abused or anything, and this doesn’t happen mean every day. ofc I love them and am grateful for them. Sometimes I just don’t know what to do

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023