I’ve told only 4 friends this but I wanted to get some advise when I was really young (I don’t remember the exact age it started) my step brother would rape me/ SA me at the time I didn’t know cause I was very young it happened for years and I just let it happen I never told anyone or made it obvious because I knew if I did they weren’t gonna believe me he would come into my room every night for years and he would make me do things with him even during the day every chance he’d get to put his hands on me and he is not the first person to SA me I was also touched by 2 other people but he lasted the longest as I grew older he stopped but over time I realized what he did was wrong I’m now 14 and I get flashbacks often but I blame myself for not saying anything or saying no he is 22 now and doesn’t live with me anymore but sometimes he comes over and all I think about is the things he did to me he talks to me normally as if nothing ever happened but I can’t stand to see or look at him in the eyes it makes me feel sick and disgusting he would tell me how pretty I was I often cry at night thinking how it’s my fault I always think how different it would be if I just said something but there’s nothing I can do now so I just stay full of regret for not speaking up about it