Ive done heavy drugs for.. a long time. I want it to stop. It hurts, I want to be normal. My childhood has sucked beyond imaginable and that was my only resort. I want it all to just.. stop, yknow? its fucking grueling and i just dont know what I should do. I miss my mom besides what shes done to me, i forgive her for what happened. back to my drug issue, please help me man. idfk what to do

Alr so.. when I was younger I would get physically abused everyday till until about the age of 12 when I was saved from that home. (I’m 17 this year …) I always thought it was normal to grow up that way.. idk why I thought parents did that. I’m working through therapy but even they don’t know the darkest part about it . Anyway.. I still love them with everything In me.. that’s the problem tho.. im afraid to let go of the people I love the most . What do I do bcs I keep self harming and idk what to do anymore people keep leaving and hurting me so.. it’s like what do I even do yk. It’s too painful to even bring up verbally .. so yeah thanks for listening

• July 28, 2023