I've been with my husband for 4 years( married for 2 almost 3) we also have an 8 month old together.. I just found out why his family hates him so much and took him out of the will. I found out he touched his 5 year old sister when he was 8 He told me that his older sister (12) molested him and so did his aunt and sometimes his aunt and sister did it to him together. I don't think he would ever hurt our children EVER but it's always in the back of my head now that I think about it and we've talked about trying for another baby ( maybe a girl) and it sometimes scares me and I don't know what I want / need to do. I trust my husband so much but it's also sometimes very terrible because I was raped and molested my by moms boyfriend from 8-11 years old until my mom found out and kicked him out. What should I do??

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023