I’ve been thinking about talking about this subject for awhile so here it is. A few years ago I was feeling a bunch a feelings all at once, like it was a lot for me… so I tried to off myself . I tried twice but I don’t want to say anything because I’ve been feeling like this again and my mom has threatened to sent me away and I don’t want that. So I’m just keeping it all to myself.

Me and my cousin and my brother were playing and all of a sudden my cousin tells my brother to look away, he then tells me to sit on the couch, we were upstairs in his hosue, his mom was doensirars in the kitchen. He told me to let me see doen there, I think I was about 9 or 10 or 11. And I said no a lot of times, I kept making excuses like “thats disgusting and yoyr mom will see us”, this retard actually said it’s ok take a photo on my iPad. Like bro what. Chile then I was like no man just stop leave me alone and leave it alone. Somehow after 10 minutes he convinced me(threatened me by saying he’ll tell his mom I showed it) and I was like fine, he’s ugly he don’t get no girls, lemme show some pity. Then he looked at it, and then it was awkward so I told my brother let’s go(keep in mind his head never looked back so he didn’t know) and then we went home and I was like, fuck no, even if it isn’t that serious, my mom would kill me, so I went to his house the next day, and we’re were playing in his garage, and he told me my bike’s brake doesn’t work(apparently he forgot all about touching and shit), so I was lik “o ok do I have to carry you or, he’s like bruh y you being so mean, at least one guy has interest in you,. And all I could think of was revenge, the day ended up in him in the hospital with a broken leg and broken arm:)

• July 2, 2023